RaineDear.

xzymhr: hi ♡ unicorn drawn by my child self /left hand

Fri, 24 May 2013 22:03:41 +1000

xzymhr:

hi ♡ unicorn drawn by my child self /left hand

Edvard Munch - Self-Portrait “à la Marat”. (1908–09) A hardened...

Fri, 24 May 2013 18:14:07 +1000

Edvard Munch - Self-Portrait “à la Marat”. (1908–09)

A hardened heart beating within a gentle soul

~*ﾟused to have dreams set variably in lake hyrule/kokiri forest...

Fri, 24 May 2013 16:23:00 +1000

~*ﾟused to have dreams set variably in lake hyrule/kokiri forest or such,

& I remember visiting the fairy fountain

the fairy lady would speak to me [distorted] and laugh

the world looked/felt like a cross between real forests/scenery & the game ゜*~

“PARTY TRASH” - ∞ (w/Drugs for Drunks) CRIM3S remix

Fri, 24 May 2013 16:04:54 +1000

“PARTY TRASH” - ∞ (w/Drugs for Drunks) CRIM3S remix

You are gorgeous.

Thu, 23 May 2013 22:25:21 +1000

& you, my kind hearted anon have drifted in & out of my thoughts on many occasions since I first saw this in my inbox months ago

I’m sorry that I didn’t reply at the time, I avoid a weird variety of things for anxiety-related reasons which I can’t explain very well over the internet (or irl actually) - but nonetheless I found your message comforting & sincere, it put more than one smile on my face haha so thank you ♥ (´㉨｀)

waiting4jesus: my brother wrote and took this photo several...

Thu, 23 May 2013 21:19:33 +1000

waiting4jesus:

my brother wrote and took this photo several years ago now. his numerous heartbreaks have also broken my heart; he is the best brother i could ever have.

Li Hui

Thu, 23 May 2013 21:17:58 +1000

Li Hui

time to smash some dusty bottles; here goes nothing much. today I woke up before 6am and made Chris...

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 09:24:19 +1100

time to smash some dusty bottles; here goes nothing much.

today I woke up before 6am and made Chris breakfast to help him get ready for work (which he couldn’t eat much of because he’s been unwell). so I ate the rest, it was healthy enough - oats, hazelnut/golden flaxseed meal + desiccated coconut w/ frozen berries, apple, mango, walnuts, soy milk etc. and albeit similar to what I had in mind for my own breakfast I felt ‘wrong’ for eating food which I had made for someone else, also the portion was too big but I feel I can’t ‘waste’ food which is in front of me, esp. if it’s healthy and made with care. I also ate it to show good faith and to deter unreasonable feelings of rejection.

but it wasn’t my food so I didn’t feel right, ended up triggering a ‘binge’ of two pieces of fruit toast w/ nutellex, 100% almond spread & raspberry jam, as well as kirra’s home made iced coffee in the fridge (dairy milk).

which triggered compulsions/urges to self harm and feelings of guilt/disgust. purged. took my medication (which has been doubled in dosage, second day dealing w/ that so far), had a cigarette, and got ready to visit the dentist. this all happened before 8:30am.

why I wrote this down - to be honest with myself and gain a more level, self-informed perspective. to recognise rational vs irrational behaviours, to move past it and let go of guilt, shame and anxiety associated w/ speaking about personal issues (to prevent isolation).

I’m going to go to the dentist, write a letter for my employer, take the pupinou for a run, stretch, spend some time scanning/sorting photos and painting, wash my hair, then hopefully see a dear friend this evening.

I will persevere.

sedna: David Richardson

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 08:48:32 +1100

sedna:

David Richardson

If my guilt, this beast of burden were sentient I would let it tear me apart.

Tue, 05 Mar 2013 01:11:00 +1100

If my guilt, this beast of burden were sentient I would let it tear me apart.

clean, clear, connected, creative.

Sat, 16 Feb 2013 18:56:00 +1100

clean, clear, connected, creative.

Photo

Sat, 16 Feb 2013 18:52:24 +1100

"Loneliness does not come from having no people around you, but from being unable to communicate the..."

Sat, 16 Feb 2013 18:39:53 +1100

“Loneliness does not come from having no people around you, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to you.”

- Carl Jung

~song of the week~ “holiday” - metronomy

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 00:28:00 +1100

~*song of the week*~

^{“holiday”} ^{- metronomy}

I need you in my life o3o

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 19:56:36 +1100

I need you in my life o3o

myself

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 13:07:02 +1100

myself

“Brennisteinn” (unreleased) - Sigur Rós experiencing...

Fri, 16 Nov 2012 16:35:46 +1100

“Brennisteinn” (unreleased) - Sigur Rós

experiencing this live, front row at Harvest with some of my closest friends was overwhelming and beautiful; a high point in my life so far.

I don’t really have a handle on anything in my life right now just absorbing >...

Mon, 05 Nov 2012 03:20:34 +1100

I don’t really have a handle on anything in my life right now

just absorbing > reacting

feels a little like being pulled away from the hub of it all, through water

darling

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 11:53:00 +1100

darling

"It is just like man’s vanity and impertinence to call an animal dumb because it is dumb to his dull..."

Fri, 12 Oct 2012 00:31:11 +1100

““It is just like man’s vanity and impertinence to call an animal dumb because it is dumb to his dull perceptions.””

- Mark Twain (via baby-vegan)

RaineDear.

xzymhr: hi ♡ unicorn drawn by my child self /left hand

Edvard Munch - Self-Portrait “à la Marat”. (1908–09) A hardened...

~*ﾟused to have dreams set variably in lake hyrule/kokiri forest...

“PARTY TRASH” - ∞ (w/Drugs for Drunks) CRIM3S remix

You are gorgeous.

waiting4jesus: my brother wrote and took this photo several...

Li Hui

time to smash some dusty bottles; here goes nothing much. today I woke up before 6am and made Chris...

sedna: David Richardson

If my guilt, this beast of burden were sentient I would let it tear me apart.

clean, clear, connected, creative.

Photo

"Loneliness does not come from having no people around you, but from being unable to communicate the..."

~*song of the week*~ “holiday” - metronomy

I need you in my life o3o

myself

“Brennisteinn” (unreleased) - Sigur Rós experiencing...

I don’t really have a handle on anything in my life right now just absorbing >...

darling

"It is just like man’s vanity and impertinence to call an animal dumb because it is dumb to his dull..."

~song of the week~ “holiday” - metronomy